Sometimes I find it hard to actually get started on things, because there are so many things I want to do at the same time, and so my brain boils down into soup when I can’t decide where to start. 😀 It’s a bit less fun than described – it’s actually quite annoying. And at the same time soooo exciting.
One of the benefits of doing it this way, without any proper customers like any normal business, but rather with an audience that as of yet doesn’t really know what I intend to do, is that – even if you don’t know you want to see it yet, I have some sort of expectations on top of me. That leads me to actually begin creating, although there’s no automatic financial payoff for me. Not yet, anyway, but I hope it will be, eventually.
And so; I have begun. I really am in the beginning of the beginning, and while I enjoy it immensely, it also happens to be quite frustrating.
For example; I have begun hinting to some people I want to talk to them about their view on dogs (and more) for the first issue of key-zine. I have also begun thinking about and trying out some stuff for the layout, since that’s a big turn-on for me when it comes to creating stuff. I usually do everything at once – writing, photographing and layout pretty much simultaneously. To me, all these things are very closely connected since I am so picky about how an audience percieves my work.
I have also begun writing on my super geeky book on truth in photography. I need to find my way around how to express myself first of all, so at the moment, I’m just trying to find the written word for it. And trust me when I tell you; the ideas behind this book are so abstract it’ll take quite a lot of work to make it understandable. And I cannot stress enough just how extremely exciting I think that is. I’m such a geek.
Oh, and about the book – I have also gotten myself a test reader. I would like one or two more of these, so if you’re interested in reading a very nerdy book on theory/method in analyzing photography, please do let me know.
In general I have to admit I am so very, very pleased I got around to do this. I’ve been thinking about it for years, but so much has been in the way – mainly my own mental health. But I really do feel like I need to do this unless I want to explode out of boredom. These are exactly the kind of challenges I enjoy the most. And since this stupid covid-19 very effectively prevents most of us to be social in pretty much any way, it feels like an awesome idea.
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