I actually do have a fairly clear idea of what I want my future to look like. I know myself well enough to know what I enjoy doing, what I’m particularily good at, and what I’d like to do with myself to thrive. It’s all about being authentic and true to oneself.
For many reasons, I have a very deep need to live very close to nature. One of them being; I’m not particularily fond of living close to other people. I have strong opinions about townlife, and by extension, how the west world choose to live. To me, it is highly unnatural and it does freak me out quite a bit.
I would also like being close to nature so I can act on my spiritual needs in a way I just can’t do when living in town. There are many things to discuss on this matter, but that’ll have to be a blog post all on its own. 🙂
Thirdly; I have a very clear view of what I want to do with my life. This website is proof of the things I am good at and the things I want to do. I want to work with photography and writing, in extension, layout, but also with dogs. And I don’t take this lightly – I really do want to work with dogs.
Which leads me to this post.
I’ve been thinking to and fro on exactly how I want to work with dogs. For a very long time, I’ve been thinking that I’d like to work with helping people find in themselves what they need to create the relationship they want with their dogs, to see their own part in their dogs behaviour, et cetera.
But I think I have decided on a completely different direction, actually. The idea is something that’s been brewing in my head for quite a long time, and I think (I THINK!!!) I’ve decided to move forward with this specifically.
I want to open a doggy daycare for XL breeds only. By XL breeds, I mean from German shepherd and up in size. I’d love to take care of some mastiffs.
But to do that, I need to live differently than I do now (apartment). I want my house out in the forest with a large, fenced area and a separate building to keep my doggy daycare business. But before I get there, I’ll need to educate myself a bit. There are a few workshops and courses I’d like to take – and one that’s necessary to legally open a dog daycare in Sweden.
A doggy daycare combined with photography, writing, blogging and layout, and lecturing on life with bipolar disorder – that’s what I’d really enjoy doing.
That, folks, is why I have this website. That’s my end game. That’s where I want to go.
I hope you’re willing to follow me, and perhaps even support me on my journey. ♥
So, for a couple of days I’ve been trying to remember where the heck I set up a shop for some of my photographic work. For some reason, I had it bookmarked in my browser without remembering it. This place is quite amazing, because it offers such a variety of STUFF, with art on it. People do the most wonderous artwork and sell it on mugs, shower curtains, as framed wall art, laptop skins et cetera.
I’ll go through the work I have on that site and do a clean-up if needed, and perhaps add some new material. If you want to take a look in the meantime, you can find my shop here.
At the moment, there are photographs from two previous projects I’ve done. One of them is Cutting Edge Erotica, which focuses on the emotional part of Femdom/BDSM, and not so much the physical/sexual part. The result of this project is actually amazing, and some of the photographs from it are among my absolutely best work up to this date.
The other project is one that somehow keeps going and going, because I don’t know how to stop. I absolutely love photographing trees and parts of nature. There’s just so much to see, and there is so much magic in it. What’s not worth photographing, eh?
I had completely forgotten this place existed, and even more so, that I, created a shop over there. Nothing’s happened in the shop so far, but still.
As you can see, there’s a whole shitload of stuff for me to do. Not only writing books and my key-zine, but also trying to figure out which photographs to put on Society6, not to mention, working out how the plugin for selling my e-books, functions. That’s a bloody fulltime job for a while. 😀
Anyways; I just wanted to let you guys know that there are things going on rapidly over here. Not everything will fall in place or be ready right away, but for me personally, it’s so important to see that things are moving forward. I love what I do here (and have been doing for most part of my life), and I can’t wait to see where this is going. ♥
Sometimes I find it hard to actually get started on things, because there are so many things I want to do at the same time, and so my brain boils down into soup when I can’t decide where to start. 😀 It’s a bit less fun than described – it’s actually quite annoying. And at the same time soooo exciting.
One of the benefits of doing it this way, without any proper customers like any normal business, but rather with an audience that as of yet doesn’t really know what I intend to do, is that – even if you don’t know you want to see it yet, I have some sort of expectations on top of me. That leads me to actually begin creating, although there’s no automatic financial payoff for me. Not yet, anyway, but I hope it will be, eventually.
And so; I have begun. I really am in the beginning of the beginning, and while I enjoy it immensely, it also happens to be quite frustrating.
For example; I have begun hinting to some people I want to talk to them about their view on dogs (and more) for the first issue of key-zine. I have also begun thinking about and trying out some stuff for the layout, since that’s a big turn-on for me when it comes to creating stuff. I usually do everything at once – writing, photographing and layout pretty much simultaneously. To me, all these things are very closely connected since I am so picky about how an audience percieves my work.
I have also begun writing on my super geeky book on truth in photography. I need to find my way around how to express myself first of all, so at the moment, I’m just trying to find the written word for it. And trust me when I tell you; the ideas behind this book are so abstract it’ll take quite a lot of work to make it understandable. And I cannot stress enough just how extremely exciting I think that is. I’m such a geek.
Oh, and about the book – I have also gotten myself a test reader. I would like one or two more of these, so if you’re interested in reading a very nerdy book on theory/method in analyzing photography, please do let me know.
In general I have to admit I am so very, very pleased I got around to do this. I’ve been thinking about it for years, but so much has been in the way – mainly my own mental health. But I really do feel like I need to do this unless I want to explode out of boredom. These are exactly the kind of challenges I enjoy the most. And since this stupid covid-19 very effectively prevents most of us to be social in pretty much any way, it feels like an awesome idea.
All righty, then! Finally! I can say “done” on the very first thing here on keyoflife.se! Yeah, I do feel great about that, because let me tell you; nothing’s been easy with this. There’s the whole issue of language, since I am a swedish native, but speak english as well. That issue in itself took forever to decide on. And then it’s been the rest.
Now, nothing stands in the way between me and my creativity. Well, there’s that thing with finances, of course – some of the things I want to do need money. That’s when, where and why I hope that you’ll buy some of my stuff, and perhaps even support me without anything in return (yet!).
I think that the first thing(s) I’m going to do, is to add into the e-book section. I have quite a few e-books that wants to be written, or perhaps changed (the ones that are already written), and there’s a course in photography (seeing and creating before even clicking to expose) I’ve wanted to write in bookform for a very long time.
Aside from geekiness about photography, I intend to get some photography done. The project “Crippled love” needs attending, and I’ll be seeing one model early this summer for a photo shoot. This project needs to expand, however, so I will start looking for various models at some point.
Since I’m doing this as a hobby rather than a business, it remains to be seen just how quickly I get things done. I refuse to live with stress, so nothing will be done under such. This will be a peaceful, stressfree outlet for my creativity. I hope you’ll enjoy it as I do. 🙂
I absolutely love building stuff. And by stuff, I don’t mean stuff that needs building, like a chair or a table or so. No, I love building websites. This is no exception.
And just for once, I am taking my time. It doesn’t have to be done yesterday. It’s enough if it gets done when I’m done – even if it’d take a month.
Because you know what?
I’ve learned that it’s the small shifts in direction that brings the change. And consistent change is what I’m looking for. Not only me being creative, even if that is what I intend to get me where I want to be.
So, I’m allowing myself the time to get it right. To be pleased. To have fun while doing it. To create a platform on which I’ll put all my creativity to test.
It is going to work the way I want it to?
I haven’t the foggiest – yet. But I’ll find out sooner or later.
What I like, so far, aside the way this site looks (because I am very pleased with that) is that I’ve managed to make some decisions. Like; should I do this in swedish or english, or perhaps both? I tried a few options, and landed in what it is now. Most is in english, to let as many people as possible understand. Some information (lectures) is in swedish, because that’s where I live, and that’s where I’ll be doing my talks – which, by the way, are very important.
I haven’t managed to gather myself to this level for many, many years. I can’t tell you how happy I am to see that am whole and stable enough to do that. Bipolar disorder has a tendency of getting in the way of focus and ambition sometimes.
Now, I just want to be done with the site itself, so I can get started on the actual creative stuff I got planned. There are so many things I am going to do. E-books. Photography stuff. Projects involving dogs. And more!
Please, help me along – buy me a cup of tea! 🙂
Key of Life
staying true to oneself
So. I’m back. I’ve been away from creating stuff on a regular basis for a very, very long time. But years of dealing with my bipolar disorder have made me bored and restless, so it’s time I do what I’m best at.
I’ll do it differently this time, though. Last time, I tried to do what other people wanted, and that doesn’t work for me at all.
I’m at my very best when I create things that for one reason or the other is important to me. That’s what I intend to do here, and I hope you’ll like it.
Since I am retired from work due to my bipolar disorder, I have very limited resources to actually do everything I want to do. Please consider supporting me once in a while, or perhaps on a regular basis, so I can keep doing all the stuff I love doing.
As for staying true to oneself; that is a quiet reminder to myself that I can’t be anyone else but me. I tried for so many years to be someone else, but I can’t. I am who I am, and I am not appologizing for it. Not anymore.
Key of Life is just getting started, so changes will happen, material and content will be added and removed. Fear not; this will be awesome in the end. ♥
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