There are so many pieces on keyoflife.se that needs to function properly. Since I’m not made of money, I have to take it step by step. The first step was to purchase software to create flipbooks out of my already existing and yet-to-be-written e-books.
The first book to be published here on Key of life, is my very personal book the Self which wasn’t mine (hashtag #TSWWM). There are a few things I need to fix in the translation before I publish it, so I think it’ll be out in a week or so. Then, I have a couple of other books to be released as well.
As for books after that; they need to be written first. 😀
But there are other things to be done. For example; recent events in Sweden concerning sexwork has turned my liberal heart into flames. The patronizing and attempts to act as a saving angel has turned the entire socity into a boiling pot of self-righteousness. So I figure I should perhaps create my first issue of the Key-zine (digital magazine/newsletter) with sexwork as topic.
To clarify; I do not sell sex myself. That’s not something I’m interested in. But I know people who do – willingly. The general idea in Sweden is that sexwork is performed by people who are mentally and emotionally wounded, who abuse and cannot take care of themselves. While this may be partly true, it is by no means true for every sexworker there is.
I would like to offer a more nuanced addition to the public conversation on sexwork. I’m not naive; I do understand that if I do this, I may very well be hated, people will be disgusted, and most likely, I’ll have to take a lot of crap for it. But I think I’ll have to do it anyway.
I am liberal in my political views, and it actually does piss me off that the Swedish social democratic, not to mention feministic ideas, think that they are doing good when in reality they are more destructive. The patronizing mentality we have here is repulsive.
I think the most important thing for me when it comes to this, is to look for a shift in attitude towards sexwork. It seems like the problem is more moral than anything else, and I really can’t see why. Sexwork has been around since the dawn of time, it’s not very likely we’ll get rid of it. I think it’s more important to make sure it’s safe for everyone involved, than put even more shame, stigma and danger into the pot. But this cannot be done until people start looking at it differently. Changing the view of sexwork, but also – the view of the people performing it.
Stay tuned – we’ll see what happens with this! =)
Sometimes I find it hard to actually get started on things, because there are so many things I want to do at the same time, and so my brain boils down into soup when I can’t decide where to start. 😀 It’s a bit less fun than described – it’s actually quite annoying. And at the same time soooo exciting.
One of the benefits of doing it this way, without any proper customers like any normal business, but rather with an audience that as of yet doesn’t really know what I intend to do, is that – even if you don’t know you want to see it yet, I have some sort of expectations on top of me. That leads me to actually begin creating, although there’s no automatic financial payoff for me. Not yet, anyway, but I hope it will be, eventually.
And so; I have begun. I really am in the beginning of the beginning, and while I enjoy it immensely, it also happens to be quite frustrating.
For example; I have begun hinting to some people I want to talk to them about their view on dogs (and more) for the first issue of key-zine. I have also begun thinking about and trying out some stuff for the layout, since that’s a big turn-on for me when it comes to creating stuff. I usually do everything at once – writing, photographing and layout pretty much simultaneously. To me, all these things are very closely connected since I am so picky about how an audience percieves my work.
I have also begun writing on my super geeky book on truth in photography. I need to find my way around how to express myself first of all, so at the moment, I’m just trying to find the written word for it. And trust me when I tell you; the ideas behind this book are so abstract it’ll take quite a lot of work to make it understandable. And I cannot stress enough just how extremely exciting I think that is. I’m such a geek.
Oh, and about the book – I have also gotten myself a test reader. I would like one or two more of these, so if you’re interested in reading a very nerdy book on theory/method in analyzing photography, please do let me know.
In general I have to admit I am so very, very pleased I got around to do this. I’ve been thinking about it for years, but so much has been in the way – mainly my own mental health. But I really do feel like I need to do this unless I want to explode out of boredom. These are exactly the kind of challenges I enjoy the most. And since this stupid covid-19 very effectively prevents most of us to be social in pretty much any way, it feels like an awesome idea.
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